Memory Lane

Today I have found myself taking a walk down memory lane. Although that is hard to do since I have lost touch with many of the people I used to hang out with in my elementary and middle school days. But today I found myself on facebook looking up people I used to be friends with and people I used to spend a lot of time with. Looking at their new pictures and some of the old, walking back down memory lane with those people whether they know it or not. Yes I know I basically facebook stalked every one of them, but hey when you have no way of really running into them what else are you to do? So yes, I facebook stalked them. But it has brought me back to some people that I do miss dearly. I miss them more than I really remember ever missing them. I used to spend so much time with some of these girls and now it is like I, or they have fallen off the face of the earth from each other. Some people recently I have decided I didn't need in my life, and I am proud that I can make that decision, but as I look back to the life I had before now, I miss the people that I haven't talked to in years. Now it seems rather ridiculous, and people say don't live in the past, but these people are the part of my past that I want to remember forever. They are the people I played sports with, I went to class with, I played on the playground with and invited over for sleep overs, and everything. People that I, for some reason, found myself connecting with. Now yes I understand we all have separate lives, and have followed our own pathway through life but I don't see the harm in trying to get in touch with the people that you used to be best friends with. Yes I have many amazing friends that populate my life as of now and there is nothing I would do to change that. But I would love to have the people that used to be in my life, re-enter and be a part of it as well. There isn't anything I would want more, is those people that I used to go to elementary school with and those people that I shared ridiculous experiences with to be back in my life. Hell I was at a Boise State football game (where I go to college which many of you know) and as I was walking to the concession stand I heard someone yell my name. I assumed it was a sorority sister, Fraternity brother, class mate, dorm mate, or just someone I worked with. But I was surprised to turn around and see someone I went to middle school with, and that was best friends with my cousin Jason. I do see him every now and then. Now him and I never really hung out and frankly we didn't really ever see eye to eye, but it is something that is heart warming to see someone from a long time ago in a current place of over 20,000 people. Just the other day I was talking to my mom on the phone, and she was going into the store and she ran into Tina, someone who bowled on the Thursday night Women's League for years and her daughter Lexxie was with her. Lexxie was and still is a dear best friend of mine. Her and I sadly have fallen away from each other and there is nothing I want more than to be back in touch with her on a regular basis. She was my rock when I needed her and I was hers. She was my "Halfbreed" as mom would say it, and I was her white girl. It sounds terrible but to us it was everything. We would go to the beach at 2 in the morning in the rain and wind just to go. We walked to Price n Pride and bought Monster and Parana drinks (when they still sold parana's). Then it was a stop at burger king for a shake and fries. Then we would walk back to the bowling alley each a cup of pickles and play Masho or Mash. We had the same 6th grade class, and were constantly getting into arguments with Mrs.Silen and her picture of President Bush that she adorned in her class room. That is when we met Kyle and Michael and we were great friends with Eder and Tony. Those days were almost the glory days except we hated the school. We had advanced art together and we hated Mrs.Holley with a passion and she hated us but that was okay because she wasn't liked by many if at all. Lexxie and I got into some ridiculous trouble, we broke a window in my garage, busted a sharpie all over my mom and dads computer screen. We quickly found out that windex removes sharpie from glass, and that to never throw a sharpie at glass. I remember when I dated Cyrus, and Lexxie was the one to tell me he wanted to break up with me, I didn't care really it was middle school. And then she was scared to tell me that he wanted to go out with her. I was happier that he date her than me. It was fine, she was so scared that I would hate her, but it was better than who she was dating before. Lexxie and I always thought that I would be the one that got married and that she would be the one to be a trucker across the untied states and then live in mexico. Back then those things were the things we could think about. We would scream out MEXI-MOBILE when a low rider drove by, and we would walk everywhere. We didn't need a car, unless we were going to her house, or mine since she lived in Rose Lodge. We would walk hours to the little store to buy candy and then walk back. I will never forget the stupid shit we would do together, and she is and always will be my best friend. I love her with all my heart and If there is any way she could read this, I hope she would. I miss her so much!